Conflicted? Journaling my thoughts

Lately I have been praying about vaccination. I have been posting about it, trying to remain neutral but of the mind too that there is some use for them. Really I do not want forced vaccinations, ever, for any reason, no matter how many people are dying. There is something very unsettling to me about forcing medical procedures on anyone. Maybe its just me, but that is the stuff of nightmares.

I can understand compelling others to NOT HAVE a medical procedure more than I can understand forcing people TO HAVE them.

The problem is, I think people will get to the point that they will desire vaccine so much that they will do anything for it. That is even a scarier prospect to me for two reasons. One, I cannot fathom the impact of an illness so devastating that people would be clamoring for vaccine. Something like people back before MMR, DTP, and Polio vaccines, and antibiotics too felt about these new advances. Perhaps some of them thought that these drugs were scary. So maybe I am just too old fashioned after all.

When does our every day behavior cross over a line into idol worship?

For me, I found that line when a procedure would be so desired that in order to avoid death, disfigurement, or discomfort I would swear allegiance to anything other than my God. I never have come even a bit close to that.

And this is why I write now. I don’t want to ever even step in the direction of that line.

Many of our advances in the world of science and medicine have been intended for the good of humanity, to end suffering, to cure illness, etc. This still may be the intention of most scientists and researchers today.

But that are some really unscrupulous folks out there who will do and say anything to make a buck.

There was not so much greed back in the day. Something has changed.

Maybe I need a retreat or something but the advances being made today are coming more and more at the expense of the safety of the consumer. And then when it turns out that some of these things just are not all that good for us, we are already hooked on them. The jury is still out on cell phones.

What are we embracing? And why?

Now there are all these advances in vaccine technology which are not tried and true. We have reason to be concerned about adjuvants, it is not unreasonable to know all that we can about what we are having injected into our bodies and the bodies of our children, born and unborn.

I had a flu shot this year. I was not compelled into it and I didn’t have to jump through hoops

…..or bow down to a foreign god or anything.

Could that conceivably happen? I should write science fiction.

Then I don’t want to say anything because what if I think it’s one thing and it’s another thing altogether. So I wait for God to reveal all. But certainly a pandemic will be a time when there will be tremendous pressure on us all.

All in all, it is ethical and moral to not spread disease if we can stop it and getting the flu can be deadly.

Having gotten a flu shot this year, then getting the flu, this may be an indication that we are dealing with a flu that is not covered under the vaccine. This year was a really good match.

Getting the flu after having been vaccinated may be an early indicator of a pandemic strain.

 

So I leave all my thoughts on this out there flapping in the breeze.

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Have No Fear – but do not be deceived

[In response to the vaccine controversy that I am hearing talked about daily]

God will reveal to us the identity of the beast through the Bible. There will be an unholy trinity revealed, antichrist – the beast, Satan – the dragon, and the false prophet – the second beast, who will expedite worship of the beast, insisting people to take his mark.

This unholy trinity will rule using an apostate one world, global religion, a one world government, and a one world economy. Lately I have been reading about far too many global initiatives for my comfort, and they all seem to appeal on the surface. Of course people who do not know the Word of God will embrace these “wonderful, enlightened” initiatives. They are deceived and they are following man’s reasoning and logic.

Are we there yet?

• I pray that in my own Bible reading, God reveals to me where we are in time.
• I pray that I am not deceived.

For unsaved family and friends I suggest that they pray that God reveals Himself to them.

One thing is for sure, I would not want to live without the indwelling Holy Spirit in the days ahead.

The beast

When that beast comes he will appeal to the whole world. He will appear to be a good man, a child of light, and many will come to worship him, believing that he is their God.

“He causes all, both small and great, rich and poor, free and slave, to receive a mark on their right hand or on their foreheads, and that no one may buy or sell except one who has the mark or the name of the beast, or the number of his name.”
~Revelation 13:16-17

Seven heads and ten horns – the world will worship him and look to him for peace.

For three and a half years there will be peace and safety. He will appear as a gentle loving man who will first soothe and comfort and exalt himself, that he is here to rescue the people of earth.

Then the covenant with many will be broken.

if you don’t receive the mark you will be hated and then killed. You will not be able to buy or sell.

"Now brother will deliver up brother to death, and a father his child; and children will rise up against parents and cause them to be put to death. And you will be hated by all for My name’s sake. But he who endures to the end will be saved."
~Matthew 10:21,22

If you receive the mark…

"If anyone worships the beast and his image, and receives his mark on his forehead or on his hand, he himself shall also drink of the wine of the wrath of God, which is poured out full strength into the cup of His indignation. He shall be tormented with fire and brimstone in the presence of the holy angels and in the presence of the Lamb. And the smoke of their torment ascends forever and ever; and they have no rest day or night, who worship the beast and his image, and whoever receives the mark of his name."
~Revelation 14:9-11

Refuse the mark, be killed here, but then live with God

"Then I saw the souls of those who had been beheaded for their witness to Jesus and for the word of God, who had not worshiped the beast or his image, and had not received his mark on their foreheads or on their hands. And they lived and reigned with Christ for a thousand years."
~Revelation 20:4

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Persecution Will Come

Behold, I am sending you out as sheep in the midst of wolves, so be wise as serpents and innocent as doves.
~Matthew 10:16

Addressing specifically the vaccine controversy

Now, being wise as serpents and harmless as doves, if you thought long and hard about it, how would you implement this mark? Vaccines on the surface seem so wonderful, life saving, and good. Could they be used as a method of delivery for the mark. Yes, but there use would also involve worshipping the beast. We have to be careful that we do not jump into something that just is not true. The mark has to knowingly be taken. Are we trusting man and science more than we are trusting God? This is a controversy that will not go away. And to be honest with you, I do not have a clear answer. This is something that I myself will have to constantly pray about. I did have my flu shot this year, and I am still praising God.

I choose to put on the full armor of God and trust that seeking His truth daily I will not be deceived when the time comes. If you were to ask me if the fullness of this time is here yet, I would say no.

But I too, am watching the horizon. I too, am cautious. I too, am vigilant.

So what should we expect and how shall we live?

Matthew 10 continues on, beginning with verse 17…

Beware of men, for they will deliver you over to courts and flog you in their synagogues, and you will be dragged before governors and kings for my sake, to bear witness before them and the Gentiles. When they deliver you over, do not be anxious how you are to speak or what you are to say, for what you are to say will be given to you in that hour. For it is not you who speak, but the Spirit of your Father speaking through you. Brother will deliver brother over to death, and the father his child, and children will rise against parents and have them put to death, and you will be hated by all for my name’s sake. But the one who endures to the end will be saved. When they persecute you in one town, flee to the next, for truly, I say to you, you will not have gone through all the towns of Israel before the Son of Man comes.

A disciple is not above his teacher, nor a servant above his master. It is enough for the disciple to be like his teacher, and the servant like his master. If they have called the master of the house Beelzebul, how much more will they malign those of his household.

So have no fear of them, for nothing is covered that will not be revealed, or hidden that will not be known. What I tell you in the dark, say in the light, and what you hear whispered, proclaim on the housetops. And do not fear those who kill the body but cannot kill the soul. Rather fear him who can destroy both soul and body in hell. Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? And not one of them will fall to the ground apart from your Father. But even the hairs of your head are all numbered. Fear not, therefore; you are of more value than many sparrows. So everyone who acknowledges me before men, I also will acknowledge before my Father who is in heaven, but whoever denies me before men, I also will deny before my Father who is in heaven.

The Bible is the sword – the sword of truth…the sword of truth that will divide even families

Do not think that I have come to bring peace to the earth. I have not come to bring peace, but a sword. For I have come to set a man against his father, and a daughter against her mother, and a daughter-in-law against her mother-in-law. And a person’s enemies will be those of his own household. Whoever loves father or mother more than me is not worthy of me, and whoever loves son or daughter more than me is not worthy of me. And whoever does not take his cross and follow me is not worthy of me. Whoever finds his life will lose it, and whoever loses his life for my sake will find it.

Whoever receives you receives me, and whoever receives me receives him who sent me. The one who receives a prophet because he is a prophet will receive a prophet’s reward, and the one who receives a righteous person because he is a righteous person will receive a righteous person’s reward. And whoever gives one of these little ones even a cup of cold water because he is a disciple, truly, I say to you, he will by no means lose his reward."

Have No Fear!

Resources:

Want to be edified?

Foxe’s Book of Martyrs

"a noble army, men and boys, the matron and the maid, climbed the steep ascent of heaven, ‘mid peril, toil, and pain."

Martyrs Mirror

"They pressed with such force through the strait gate, they left their flesh on the posts."

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I could sit still in my faith

Faith like a child.

Even wearing my dirtiest robes God loved and loves me.

When I sin it grieves the Lord but it grieves me too. I hate the sin that I do. And I do. And I do.

But I know that all I have to do is turn back to Him and away from my own selfishness and pride, look at my own fault and pray for change and cleansing, and it is mine.

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I remember as a girl being punished and sent to my room. I would spend hours bored to tears. As an “active” child who preferred climbing trees and playing baseball, closing me in my room for hours was a good punishment.

Sitting on my bed I had plenty of time to think about what I had done wrong.

Usually about 3 or 4 hours into my punishment I would write pages about what I did wrong and hand them to my parents. They never asked me to do this. But I wanted to let them know that I had truly thought about what I had done wrong and wanted to correct my behavior. I started writing very young.

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Obviously I still write.

And I still confess my deeds done before men and before God.

And I have done much that is wrong.

As I sit here I can say that there IS forgiveness for the truly contrite heart. God does not demand works of us, nor does He demand perfection. It simply is not possible. We cannot elevate ourselves to be on a par with the only perfect man, Jesus Christ. The Redeemer of all who would believe – and I believe.

He died upon the cross carrying all of our sins, past, present and even future on that day, that hour and that minute that He died.

 

 

And this is what happened when He voluntarily gave up His life for us, so that we may have new life in Him.

 

 

The testimony of nature

There was no “eclipse”, yet the sun was darkened. At the time of year (Passover) when Jesus Christ was crucified the sun and the moon are opposite each other – there could be no eclipse. Yet, at mid-day, when the sun should be burning brightest, it was darkened while Jesus Christ was mocked and jeered.

That darkening demonstrates God’s judgment, and it is clear.

There is only one escape from this judgment to this day – to bow the knee in faith.

God controlled nature in order that we could see that this was not some zealot dying for what He believed in, but the Son of God bearing the weight of our sin for us. He became our sin.

In Hebrew and Aramaic He cried “Eli, Eli, lama sabachthani”. “My God, my God, why hast thou forsaken me?” He thirsted for God and then He voluntarily gave up the spirit to His Father in heaven.

…and He wasn’t even a sinner, but the most righteous man to ever live. Even those who do not believe in Him as the Saviour recognize Him as a great teacher or prophet. Yet His own testimony of Himself would then make Him a liar. He cannot be both – He is the Son of God, by faith I testify to this.

The earth quaked and the thick and heavy temple curtain was torn in two, from top to bottom – not by man but by God, exposing the Holy of Holies, and demonstrating that through Jesus Christ God is approachable.

Let us, therefore, come boldly unto the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy, and find grace to help in time of need ~Heb. 4:16

The end of the sacrificial system – works – had come.

The sayings of Jesus Christ on the Cross

“Father, forgive them for they know not what they do”, prayed because of the Roman soldiers who were putting Him to death by decree. They did not know. They did not recognize Him.

The repentant thief who recognized the righteousness of Jesus was saved.

And then He lovingly placed the care of His mother into the hands of his beloved disciple John.

One day

Jesus Christ will come back in triumph. He will unroll the title deed to the earth, that He alone is worthy of opening, and Satan will be removed from his throne. (Revelation 5:7)

and then

 

 

Revelation 6

The First Seal–Rider on White Horse

Then I saw when the Lamb broke one of the seven seals, and I heard one of the four living creatures saying as with a voice of thunder, "Come."

I looked, and behold, a white horse, and he who sat on it had a bow; and a crown was given to him, and he went out conquering and to conquer.

The Second Seal–War

When He broke the second seal, I heard the second living creature saying, "Come."

And another, a red horse, went out; and to him who sat on it, it was granted to take peace from the earth, and that men would slay one another; and a great sword was given to him.

The Third Seal–Famine

When He broke the third seal, I heard the third living creature saying, "Come " I looked, and behold, a black horse; and he who sat on it had a pair of scales in his hand.

And I heard something like a voice in the center of the four living creatures saying, "A quart of wheat for a denarius, and three quarts of barley for a denarius; and do not damage the oil and the wine."

The Fourth Seal–Death

When the Lamb broke the fourth seal, I heard the voice of the fourth living creature saying, "Come."

I looked, and behold, an ashen horse; and he who sat on it had the name Death; and Hades was following with him Authority was given to them over a fourth of the earth, to kill with sword and with famine and with pestilence and by the wild beasts of the earth.

The Fifth Seal–Martyrs

When the Lamb broke the fifth seal, I saw underneath the altar the souls of those who had been slain because of the word of God, and because of the testimony which they had maintained;

and they cried out with a loud voice, saying, "How long, O Lord, holy and true, will You refrain from judging and avenging our blood on those who dwell on the earth?"

And there was given to each of them a white robe; and they were told that they should rest for a little while longer, until the number of their fellow servants and their brethren who were to be killed even as they had been, would be completed also.

The Sixth Seal–Terror

I looked when He broke the sixth seal, and there was a great earthquake; and the sun became black as sackcloth made of hair, and the whole moon became like blood;

and the stars of the sky fell to the earth, as a fig tree casts its unripe figs when shaken by a great wind.

The sky was split apart like a scroll when it is rolled up, and every mountain and island were moved out of their places.

Then the kings of the earth and the great men and the commanders and the rich and the strong and every slave and free man hid themselves in the caves and among the rocks of the mountains;

and they said to the mountains and to the rocks, "Fall on us and hide us from the presence of Him who sits on the throne, and from the wrath of the Lamb;

for the great day of their wrath has come, and who is able to stand?"

 

I could sit still in my faith and not do works

Not by works, but by faith – that is how we find fellowship with God.

Because I love Him I want to serve Him.

Do you desire God?

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Be infants in evil, but in your thinking be mature

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1 Corinthians 14:1-40

Prophecy and Tongues

Pursue love, and earnestly desire the spiritual gifts, especially that you may prophesy. For one who speaks in a tongue speaks not to men but to God; for no one understands him, but he utters mysteries in the Spirit. On the other hand, the one who prophesies speaks to people for their upbuilding and encouragement and consolation. The one who speaks in a tongue builds up himself, but the one who prophesies builds up the church. Now I want you all to speak in tongues, but even more to prophesy. The one who prophesies is greater than the one who speaks in tongues, unless someone interprets, so that the church may be built up.

Now, brothers,if I come to you speaking in tongues, how will I benefit you unless I bring you some revelation or knowledge or prophecy or teaching? If even lifeless instruments, such as the flute or the harp, do not give distinct notes, how will anyone know what is played? And if the bugle gives an indistinct sound, who will get ready for battle? So with yourselves, if with your tongue you utter speech that is not intelligible, how will anyone know what is said? For you will be speaking into the air. There are doubtless many different languages in the world, and none is without meaning, but if I do not know the meaning of the language, I will be a foreigner to the speaker and the speaker a foreigner to me. So with yourselves, since you are eager for manifestations of the Spirit, strive to excel in building up the church.

Therefore, one who speaks in a tongue should pray for the power to interpret. For if I pray in a tongue, my spirit prays but my mind is unfruitful. What am I to do? I will pray with my spirit, but I will pray with my mind also; I will sing praise with my spirit, but I will sing with my mind also. Otherwise, if you give thanks with your spirit, how can anyone in the position of an outsider say “Amen” to your thanksgiving when he does not know what you are saying? For you may be giving thanks well enough, but the other person is not being built up. I thank God that I speak in tongues more than all of you. Nevertheless, in church I would rather speak five words with my mind in order to instruct others, than ten thousand words in a tongue.

Brothers, do not be children in your thinking. Be infants in evil, but in your thinking be mature. In the Law it is written, “By people of strange tongues and by the lips of foreigners will I speak to this people, and even then they will not listen to me, says the Lord.” Thus tongues are a sign not for believers but for unbelievers, while prophecy is a sign not for unbelievers but for believers. If, therefore, the whole church comes together and all speak in tongues, and outsiders or unbelievers enter, will they not say that you are out of your minds? But if all prophesy, and an unbeliever or outsider enters, he is convicted by all, he is called to account by all, the secrets of his heart are disclosed, and so, falling on his face, he will worship God and declare that God is really among you.

Orderly Worship

What then, brothers? When you come together, each one has a hymn, a lesson, a revelation, a tongue, or an interpretation. Let all things be done for building up. If any speak in a tongue, let there be only two or at most three, and each in turn, and let someone interpret. But if there is no one to interpret, let each of them keep silent in church and speak to himself and to God. Let two or three prophets speak, and let the others weigh what is said. If a revelation is made to another sitting there, let the first be silent. For you can all prophesy one by one, so that all may learn and all be encouraged, and the spirits of prophets are subject to prophets. For God is not a God of confusion but of peace.

As in all the churches of the saints, the women should keep silent in the churches. For they are not permitted to speak, but should be in submission, as the Law also says. If there is anything they desire to learn, let them ask their husbands at home. For it is shameful for a woman to speak in church.

Or was it from you that the word of God came? Or are you the only ones it has reached? If anyone thinks that he is a prophet, or spiritual, he should acknowledge that the things I am writing to you are a command of the Lord. If anyone does not recognize this, he is not recognized. So, my brothers, earnestly desire to prophesy, and do not forbid speaking in tongues. But all things should be done decently and in order.

Pray for all gifts, but know

we are so small. So very, very, small.

 

 

And also know the signs of the times.

The Lord Will Pour Out His Spirit

“And it shall come to pass afterward,

that I will pour out my Spirit on all flesh;

your sons and your daughters shall prophesy,

your old men shall dream dreams,

and your young men shall see visions.

Even on the male and female servants

in those days I will pour out my Spirit.

“And I will show wonders in the heavens and on the earth, blood and fire and columns of smoke. The sun shall be turned to darkness, and the moon to blood, before the great and awesome day of the Lord comes. And it shall come to pass that everyone who calls on the name of the Lord shall be saved. For in Mount Zion and in Jerusalem there shall be those who escape, as the Lord has said, and among the survivors shall be those whom the Lord calls.

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